A Letter To Self

In the Name of Allâh, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful. Praise be to Allah. Peace and blessings be upon the Messenger Sallallahu 'Alaihi Wasallam and upon all his family and companions.

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh,

Nur Nabilah Huda Binti Hamdan.

First and foremost, let's say alhamdulillah. Let's be thankful to Allah SWT. For whoever you are today. For wherever you've been throughout your 4 years of being a TESLian. For every single thing that you've done, you've reached and you've succeed. Without His love and mercy you won't be able to even type this or to look back and sort of reminiscing what you've gone through. So, alhamdulillah Ya Rabb. 

Anyway dear self, 

Congratulations for the right choice you made for your life. I don't know either it'll suit you well or not. But I'm sure you'll walk out of that Chancellor Hall one day, smiling proudly with your hands are holding tightly to a rolled certificate. Your graduation robe warmly embraces your success, you don't care even if it will shrink you down. You may look shorter, much shorter in that but the most important thing is, you'll be happy. As happy as you were always longed to feel. Happier than getting a bus from Kampung E. Happier than winning a whole day leisure treat. It's a happy feeling you cannot compare to anything else. The sound of cheer and the smell of richly-indulgent-knowledge sort of lingers at each and every part and corners of the hall. Feeling happier than any happy feelings you've ever felt before. 

Now that, if you really "Strive To Excel".

Which I'm sure you will. I know you. You're one lazy bone but you'll eventually pass it.

Or else you'll be crying a river reading this in 2016. Let's work on - not making that happen. Shall we? 

By the time you read this later, I'm sure you got your life planned very well. That shining black car and at least a double-storey house, remember? Have you work out on that? Have you got someone playing in your mind non-stop for 24 hours a day? You better do, dear. Okay let's not elaborate on this, it's pretty disturbing. Hahaha..

So, Nabilah I know you'll work for your success but I hope, in the moment you read this letter, you'll be better than who I am now. I've been almost 2 months here in Universiti Malaysia Sabah, still a green-new fella here. My grammar sucks, and just so you know I still can't cope with everything yet. The grammar class was horrible I'm sure you remember that too. How absentmindedly you were that time. So I really hope, that you, my dear self Nur Nabilah can correct all the grammatical errors I did in your past. Because in the end, you are becoming an English teacher in another short period of time. (Ameeeen) So be a good teacher, teach the children good, proper things and do show your love towards them. Make sure your ambitious mission is more than just a dream. Be grateful for the knowledge that you'll have, as they are all from Allah, The Lord of All-Knowing. The Lord of The Worlds & Universe. Praise be to Allah, for all that He gave you. I am always here, praying for your success, now and in the future. Now on this Earth and in the Hereafter. 

Cherish this beautiful life as much as you can, hold on tight to all your dreams and work for them, thank Allah and your parents. Remember all ups and downs you've been. For all of that, you are here. Whatever the date you'll be reading this in 2016, be humble. Be better than me, love yourself, love the path that Allah has guided you. Don't be afraid to take chances and always remember there'll be thousands and millions of stakes you might face in life, while you are tip-toeing towards success but don't ever give up. Feel the fear but jump off the edge anyway. Enjoy the roller-coaster to bits and pieces. And always, remember Allah in every single thing He puts you through.

"And what is the worldly life except the enjoyment of delusion." (Holy Qoran: 57:20 & 3:185 ― Saheeh International)


BITTAUFIQ WANNAJAH, NABILAH!
(With His guidance you'll grant success/the ability to perform well towards success.)

Sincerely your dearest past,

Nur Nabilah Huda Binti Hamdan.